imaGiNaTIoN + rAMadHaN + LovE

I believe today there a slight chances thing going to be differents. I believe too soon. But in life, everyday is a change itself. I experienced love, deceived, joy, and heart broken. When i think about it... That's life... I was yearning for love that never come. I met somebody but the excitement is not that much. Why? Because i am so afraid of heartbroken again... And again...again...again...again...(endless).. Then again, let put thing this way. He might be the one. He should be... (did i sound so desperate...). The ironic of my relationship is i always looking for tough and well build guy. But he was so 'the other way around' guy. He's kinda skinny... Unique looking guy and so adorable... I just let this relationship go thru and let see where it goes... (crossing finger wanting he's the one)

owh yes, i just wanna share about my work... Let me ask you... This two(2) questions.
1) do you love your job?
2) do u like your job?
The answer... I love and like my job... But i hate the company. It's corrupted from the inside out. How to put this... I was scolded for NO reason from my bloody idiot boss without him to do proper checking... I am so bloody and freakin' pissed and i was so putting his name on my voodoo doll!!! Muahahaha... Thankgoodness... My own manager back me up 100%. He trust me so much... My colleague too and yes, my very own supervisor.. I am so happy everyone is backing me up!!

Kylie Minogue The Aphrodite

owh yeah!!! finally the album is out. the goddess have come down to earth

from all the track in this album

i love All the Lovers, Cupid boy( i just can't imagine how the music video will look like. hot muscle guy in thong with wing.hahahaha) get outta my way, Aphrodite and illusion

tHe Best Pop album in 2010, bravo!!!!

the PlaYEr + thE cLEAneR + THe RuBBiSh

Guess what just happened today..

there's a lot of thing happened to me since yesterday and it was bloody crazy..

damn!!!

by now maybe you guys already knew that i already bought the washing machine. i was thinking to buy the water hose that can be link from the tap direct to the machine. from my last experience. the water hose kinda short...so that friday i was planning to buy at taman University. owh yeah, i found nothing. i waste MYR$3.40 just to get there and MYR$10.50 for McD. i need to buy something. later that night i went to this uncle shop. i thought i saw the water hose before. i did saw. i did find and TOO BAD the water this time to short. i should check properly. the moral of the story.

THAT DAY IS WAS SUCK!!!!

the next day, i wake up and direct myself to utility shop...what i was thinking before. buy the thing and still the connector doesn't fit right. i am so bloody frustrated. i need to do something. owh yeah. i am improvising. and i pull it off perfectly

later that evening. the JUSCO company came by and brought me the machine. owh yeah...

MAX!!! TAKE THAT..I AM NOW COMPLETE. YOU A LOSER. I HOPE YOU IN JAIL NOW

btw, max used to be my housemate

later that night. game GERMANY VS ARGENTINA

of cause my preferential goes to underdog Germany. my applaud goes to KLOSE and MULLER

my hero, owh yeah...this 2 dude just made the team on a big lead...owh yeah...i am now happy

later this morning, SPAIN Vs Paraguay

my verdict. spain will go to the next round.

good nite all

see u in the semi

Tibby and Alex Ep 1

this is a story about Alex and Tibby, i have this two teddy bears and i found them cute...teddy name Alex was a gift from my Ex-bf and Teddy bear Tibby was a souvenir from jusco. i think u guys remember i bought a washing machine. i am so boring...so i do this..

there will be a lot episode up coming

tHE GeNiuS, ThE TruTH aND THe EviL

tet...tet...tet...owh...my alarm clock!!!! what the fuck!!!

monday morning, urgh...can u imagine, the first day of the week.

i kinda hate today. wake up and straight to the bathroom

put on shirt and pants and straight to the road.

take a bus...

that morning, the sun really warm...

now the hatred become soothing. look at he bird flying

and yes, actually i don't get to see what happened on the bus because i sleep the whole journey

hahaha

reach office and start being a robot. literally

just to share, this my bro in the office. he is kinda cute but he is so off limit to any dude, gays, girl or lesbian. he is taken...~drool in sad

this some of the picture that taken by me. i ask him to act like got rape by me. hahaha...he's doing it right...so funny

once finish, quickly off to home

owh yeah, i need to go to Jusco to buy myself a washing machine. there's a cute teddy bear they gave. i think as token since i apply for jusco card. it's just MRY$12.00 and i got 5% discount for purchasing the washing machine. good bargain i guess

my Ex-housemate take the damn machine. i don't really care.

as long his butt is off from my property. owh yeah. i have this lady friend..her name is gweny. we talk shit about my ex-housemate...hahaha...so bad!! and felt so good...

went to pasar malam. there's a lot of hot dude...

i bought fresh orange, chicken(tongkeng sebenarnya...hahahaha) and rojak petis

wah so nice...

how to put this. it seem monday isn't that bad...some more i just got my salary credit today

ok...that's for tonight

see you guys then for more adventure...

hahaha ~yawn!!!

fReaK + soRrOW + aNGeR

for the last couple of week, i felt so confident about myself. how i am re-presenting myself as A PERSON. i know i gain a couple of pound but i still confident as i can still hook up with some guys and had sex all day long. it doesn't matter now. i accidentally go to YM and click one of the fellow and we decided to meet. we choose to meet at the city Square JB and guess what

he is so old(my type actually) and he so handy with anyone who pass by, the waiter, the cleaner boy, cashier and i felt invisible. and still so defensive about him being such a dick in front of me

Hello, i am here.... he still flirting with that waiter.

the good part is, i don't have to waste a penny since he treat me all the food and the goods. as usual i felt that i don't want to owe anything from him. so i just stand up say right to his face

"i am so boring, i need to leave"

do you thinks it's too much. i don't think so

because of this, i felt my confident drop to zero. i felt so unreal and undone.

I'm sad now. i felt like to vomit.

just now, i receive an short message in my mobile that another person want to meet me.

i told him direct. i am 170cm++ and weight 90kg. i am so damn fat :P hahaha

he said, great!!! we will meet...i don't think he got the idea that i don't want to see him.

what the hack. i might get laid tonight

wish me luck

owh yeah, i just "unfriend" one of my so call friend in the facebook. think before u type

i will assure that he will suffer tomorrow.

I'm being so childish...this is not me

let me recap the best movie that i just watched last Saturday

"KNIGHT AND DAY"

this movie is like a combo of fun and excitement. a combination of mission impossible + charlie's angel. this movie rawck my world. i love the whole plot in the movie. and so funny. the next big thing after Mr & Mrs Smith

good bye brangelina, and hello camertom/tomeron( it suppose to be cameron + tom)

so far that's it

till we see each other again

Tata

TanGO + pERasAAn + KekUSutAn

bunyi bising dari sudut katil membuat mata ku terbuka. dengan perlahan aku bangun tanpa semangat. duduk aku seketika terfikir apa yg aku buat selepas ini

owh yeah, i'm single now.

setiap kali aku turuni tangga ini. bunyi kayu yg membuat aku teringat kembali kisahsilam. suasana sunyi yang menghiasi ruang tamu membuat aku tenang seketika. hujung mata ku ternampak bungkusan hadiah...air mata berderai

aku dah lupa, ini kali keberapa aku berasa sangat sunyi. menginginkan kembali kehangatan cinta yg akhir2x ini terasa seperti tidak pernah wujud.

salju air sejuk yg membasahi setiap tubuh ku...hembusanku perlahan.

bersambung...

CommiTment + DisCourage + HeaRT brOKen

what an odd time to say "i gave up". i never give up. i always strive for the best. it's almost 2 years i have been here in Citigroup. i don't want to begin stress in this blog. nowadays, i don't feel like going to work. it's so boring and i felt like robot or human garbage. i don't feel like i have appreciated. I'm applying for the post of trainer and hopefully i got the job. there's a lot of cute people in the platform now but i don't think i have to talk to them.

ok, now i am sad...i am now alone, yeah single again..

need to sleep

mISsiNG + mOVeRs + GaiNInG

wake up around 10 a.m and have a DVD marathon and i was thinking or have you all ever thinking about future that something is changing, have u ever stared at window and what u gonna do or what u gonna be in future. 

me myself have believe in heart that something gonna be happening to me in very near future. but for now, here's 2 thing in my mind that kept bugging me since this morning. 

1) my future

2) my love life

my future is in form of randomness, i start studying biology( i never like this subject though) in high school. and have opportunity to study in matriculation in perak, major in physics. my field is much clearer now, then i forward myself studying in university here in jb, Universiti teknologi malaysia, skudai. majoring in industry focusing in math field and i am so good in algebraic and modern algebraic. 

someday long time ago, i was in my dorm stared and window and wondering that what lies ahead. and now i'm working in banking line, citibank singapore. what a chaos life line, but i believe this is the course that god wanted me to follow. have u ever wonder on hill, mountain, waterfall, window, in bed before u close ur eyes to sleep, i believe u did right. and trust me. if u put hardship and passion toward that dream. everything gonna be come tru. do u know what i dream right now? 

i dream in having a lovable life partner and success in career. oh yes i know this might take times. i just dont care. forget everything that blocking ur way, make ur own way. i will find that path and shared every drop of my success with my love one. owh yes, the music i listen right now "bitter sweet symphony" by the verve. kinda cool. let me share with you.

after wake up, i start planning my day, first wash cloth that have been pile up for a week. it save much electricity rather than wash everyday and waste so much water. just wash once every week. after that make some cold nescafe + jemput-jemput onion and anchovy. watch 3 DVD marathon

1) yes man

2) house of bunny

3) fired up

nice movie!!! especially house of bunny, changing those nerd and geek girl into super-hot ladies. best quote in this movie so far i can remember

" your eyes is a nipple of your face, so make it beautiful"

so cocky and deliciously marvellous, owh yeah almost forgot yesterday saturday, i let myself to watch a movie called "17 again" play by zach Efron ( do i spell it correctly?? owh whatever), the thing is...he is soooo HOT and the body so f**king HOT and yes, allow me to lick it, too bad i was so into older guy. now i'm routing to catch ice age 3: the meltdown

tomorrow is monday, the busiest day in citibank, i just hate it. monday just giving me migrain every single week. but i think i know on how make it interesting.

my love on the other hand so much troublesome, the good thing of being single is u can do whatever u wanted, but sometimes when u pass one moment of loneliness, i felt like no one was there for me.

 i think u never understand what i am thinking. u all have a great life, as i try to forget him by make myself busy doing housework and much other thing, deep inside is so much hurt. but looking at my love history, i am so bad luck of finding love. maybe i am never able to find love at the first place. this is the curse i believe. let's talk about other thing. 

i bought a perfume called Hugo "energise", last month i bought Sean John "Unforgivable". i like the one that bought last month. smell so intense and kinda hot if u put it in small portion, hugo is a perfume that i always bought. next month i'm gonna buy "wood". smell so earthy and felt like strong and macho guy...sort of. 

tomorrow i will snap some of my beloved colleague and i will put some comment of my friend picture. i have tons of friend in this department.i will show u guys which one is friend, which one is foe, and which one is such phony, or which one is such a total bi**h. owh yes, i love giving comment to my friend's picture

let's wait. LOVE YOU

"Let's embrace every moment that u have right NOW as there's no more tomorrow"

ROuGh + kINkY + SchiZoPHonIc

today morning wake up so meaninglessly. hoping new day would be come tru and there's hope for hapiness. something did happened and yes, multiple compliments sent from customer. i sort of happy what is the outcome, at least people know that i can be as good as i sound. the new system that citibank presented this morning kinda suck actually. but at least by the end of days, u got another compliment. what a great day. but promise me, that all of that come with a price. someday i have to pay for that. but let enjoy those moment while we there as tomorrow who might know that "there's no longer tomorrow". 

about my love life, i felt like breaking up with him or not to fall in love with him kinda sad. i have friend that i can shoulder on. i felt kinda relief. it sou d kinda odd, but i had a little or tiny crush on my boss. he's so kind with me. i hope he can talk and smile with me. har har har... i put so much hope. but there's nothing wrong to put some or little dream in this tiny heart of mine. maybe...it just maybe that he is the one. he's cute...saurabh, i think i like u. i like faidzal, he smell so nice. that's it. i like norman and adam, he's like plumpy kinda guy that i like. i dont like skinny. i like wan from IT technician, and his friend. not the tallest one and skinny. but the one that have a warm smile that make me smile a little bit more and make my day. 

but one person that make me happy everytime, guess who? of coz he's saurabh. his loving face and cute and cuddly smile never fail me to make me smile. but the one that i did missed a lot is hubby Azlan, though he kinda rough on me, but he is an ideal man for me. i like him from top to toe. the sweet scene that cover his body and his word care about me, but that's no longer matter. i hope he find peace at heart after coming back from mecca. he did said to me once he got back

"i hope u understand that i just got back from mecca"

i know that what he meant is, i don't wanna do this anymore and we can stop seeing each other again

the sad thing is that i really like him, the worst part is i had given everythin' , body soul and money. i dont know i and actually care about "body" part, money he's so absolutely going to refund to me. my "soul" is broken into pieces and no longer be healed and i so so so sad...to sad leaving him.

nevertheless, i hope tomorrow morning will be clearer and much brighter than ever. my heart is opened again but sadly will never forget about him. i love him that much. i can stand him or him fooling around with another girl or woman, but i really can't stand him if he's fooling around with another man.

dear journal, i think i know what i'm gonna do next. i will start take all the opportunity in this world and having fun in my own way and there's no one will tell me what i do or what will went wrong. i will be a happy person all over again.

thank you for a hard listening and sometimes history will repeat itself and that's makes me grow stronger and become more human

thanks and regards

Loveless

"part that u think u love him the most is part that where u letting him go"

++++ movie review ++++

today we look at "monster Vs Alien", this hillarius movie is soooodamn funny, all the sadness and sorrow cured if u watch this movie. i love part when bob said "suuuusaaannn!!!, ooohh...i scared myself" hehehehe and bob is my character of the day. i love being bob, though clueless but he love and enjoy being "bob"

allow me to list down all time ranking, best three my own top movie

1. Monster Vs Alien

2. Night at Museum 2

3. Angel and Demon

a must watched movie, yeah!!!!

++++ music review ++++

i kinda like a few song that i choose from my download from internet.

my top 5 favor

1. Robot from t.a.t.u

2. fly on the wall from miley cyrus 

3. hot and cold from katy perry

4. matahariku from agnes monica

5. Halo from Beyonce

SUpriSe + cRAzy + bLowJOb

today i wake up around  8.30 a.m. to make up for yesterday working hour...so mean of me. hehehe. today early in the morning got called from this uncle..what were u thinking??? from astro guy lah...that he want to install this astro thingy in my house...i said ok. no prob...

so decide to book a ticket to watch movie at cineplex, city square. well... my favorite cartoon from all decade. i like melman, the giraffe. he's so funny. suddenly

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...!!!

well...it's already 10 a.m. while i'm sitting watching tv eating fries and fish tits bits, it's was an astro uncle. well...wait for 30 minutes installation. time goes so fast...first thing i watch is totally spies... love this cartoon even my abg angkat idzaney(not here at the moment) love this cartoon.

later that evening, i am so horny. contact en azlan from kulai. 

so we do some "business" hehehe...from floor to bed to stair to shower to...u just name.

all position misionary, doggy, normal style, u just name it..he is so cool...his dick so big....like when fuck me like pumping my ass... har har har...

he's here quite awhile...till 5 p.m...

so this is my room...all alone. dont want any housemate...hehehe...for some occasinal event

hehe...so horny

hmmm....that's all

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Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back.

Before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my bestest

and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn, to win some or learn some.

But I won't hesitate no more

no more it cannot wait, I'm yours.

Mmmhmmm 

Well open up your mind and see like me

open up your plans and damn you're free

I look into your heart and you'll find love love love love 

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing

We're just one big family

and it's our god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved, loved.

So I won't hesitate no more

no more it cannot wait, I'm sure

there's no need to complicate, our time is short

this is our fate, I'm yours

Dooj doo doo dooja dooja doo doo

Dooja wanta comma scooch on over closer dear?

And I will nibble your ear

Zoo da ba ba ba ba

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Whoa-oh-oh-oh

Oh oh, Oh-Whoa-oh-oh

Uh huh

Mnhmmm

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

and bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass, and so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I'ma sayin is there ain't no better reason

to rid yourself of vanity so just go with the seasons

it's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue.

But I won't hesitate no more

no more it cannot wait, I'm yours.

Well open up your mind and see like me

(I won't hesitate)

open up your plans and damn you're free

(no more, no more)

I look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

(it cannot wait... I'm yours)

so please don't, please don't, please don't 

(there's no need to complicate)

there's no need to complicate

(our time is short)

cause our time is short

this oh, this oh, this is our fate

(this is our fate)

I'm yours

pergh citer ni mmg best...mengalahkan super movie mr and mrs smith. aku ngan idzaney mmg tabik spring kat citer nih. i love this movie...surely my movie of the year...har har har

i give 9 over 10 rating movie

tEnSIon + RicH + esCalATed

30th oct 08

huuuu...i love my job, now working at citibank singapore

i'm glad that i had this job. working at the bank..my passion

i have fantasies that hang out with some cute guy at bank and talk about business and work. hmm..i do have friend that cute. unfortunately he's so straight...har har har...

later i have friend who will live in my house...dia cute gakk...tapi stright lah...malas nya aku. lagi pun takleh nak bawak ajak bf aku masuk umah :))

gRand PrizE + ConSoLAtion + LosER

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Losing + Gain + Crazy

Do you know how it feel to be alone?

i do. and i hate it when i'm alone. this awful feeling inside me kept telling me the bad thouhgt that i've been feel now. everytime i thing about me and my love life .and my experienced when i was in KL

i'm confused

and
i've kept asking myself many thing about

AM I READY FOR LOVE?

The answer:

I don't know

and the sad thing is, i hate those feeling that telling me that i'm not ready for love. sometime my senses come and i realize that maybe the only thing that bother me a lot is me being alone. plus i had so many thing going on in my mind. my thesis, my obligation towards my family... giving me a huge headache.

luckily, next semester. i can live with my eldest sister along in kulai that much closest to UTM.i'm just not ready to give up my social life yet...there still many thing to explore outside.my sex life is just the beginning, and i know....but i made a promise to myself that i only start to fall in love when i already have a job and when i am 25 yrs old.

it's raining outside. and last night there's an awful smell. GOD i can't stand it.there's nothing i can do here in my hometown. my social life like dead here. i miss sex so much. i don't know...

maybe i am,

maybe i can start looking for job. locating some place to work. something like that.so when i grad or finished my study. i just got job.

i felt so awkward whem my mouth kept whispering "i missed my friend"since i have no real friend now. i don't know...maybe i am missed them so much.

Tuesday, december 25 2007

my determination about leaving the house is coming back again. it never lost in my mind, it just keep fading in time. but today, i just realize that what i really need right now is gone from these family. this family always make my nerves on. people always misunderstand with my cry.

i cry because i hate....i never regret for what i did. i never did wrong. when i do. i will always make sure it right. of coz not everything is right. but when i doing some work. and other people kept telling me to do the work that i've been doing. MAN!!!! i will piss of.let me finish my work then u can say anything i said. next week, new semester will start. i dont know how am i gonna survive in that situation. where i'm gonna live. where i'm gonna stay.

when night come, everybody just tired. but for me. cleaning is my way to show my anger. maybe some people would notice. but my family doesn't.

i miss my friend. and my social life. chasing and everything. i need job really badly.

Friday, january 4 2008

a person that called himself a man come forth to me and said "i love you" and "i miss you". how should i react. i fully determine that i am fully dedicate myself just being friend.i start to like him but i couldn't. i want us just being friend but he kept being nice to me ever since. i dont want to felt that i owe him something if something bad is happening. i am not good at long term relation.

sunday, january 13th 2008

Braveheart ~ piano chored

today, me and sayang had a lot to talk. and it's good to talk about something you really care. unfortunately, me and him didn't put any closure to this problem. i know that he love. but for how much i don't know. today also we syncronised our theme song. actually our ring tone song. hahaha...he seem to like kinda music i like. from a group mocca. song i don't know the title but track number 12. hahaha....i think the group the last song the best. well...the music kinda catchy at first...i listen to it right now. i definitely gonna learn to sing this song a sang with him. hehehe....

tomorrow..i hate monday. my life kinda mess lately...but i have to put an end to it.yes i will....may god bless me

thursday, february 7th 2008

The Crowd Embrace ~ OST Perfume: A story of a murderer

i experienced a great love that i never realized that it would be great. but somehow that it feels so wrong. i do remember that i once used to put myself in this situation. i will never cry for a man and never cry for any love feeling. me and En Aziz end up so clearly after he bored with me. actually i'm the one who ask for the break up. because i met someone that i thought that would love me forever. En Taufic, one man that love me. he love me so much... i realize that. so am i to him. yesterday i went to En Aziz's house and we sleep. i don't want any sex. but it just happened. sort of... but it happened. i told him about En Taufic. he very pleased that i met somebody. but in his eyes i know that he still love me.

and yet, i should not meet him just to tell how sorry i am to break up with En Taufic. asking an opinion from your ex's. i should think more clearly in future. for me, thing that going on with En Taufic is finally have a closure. i ask for the break up. and as usual he blame me for everything. he never take a single blame for anything happened. when i am in wrong...he blame me. when he's in wrong..he also blame me. what the hack....that was one person that i knew.

and that person is En Taufic. my heart is closed for any man right now. En Aziz put a fullstop after dating me. so does En Taufic...i don't know. but it always happened like this. when i end up a relationship with someone. that was his final relationship. it's like...me in his life awakened something that been inside them and i feel somehow bad. don't even give me a second chance.

En Taufic kept calling me..sms me..how in the world i'm gonna forget about him. i think..i am not gonna answer his call or SMS untill he said "i am so sorry". i don't know why...but deep inside me...i think..he owe me an apology.

one thing that i realize for myself about myself is... i am not fit to be someone lover or in other word... i am not ready to fall in love. a CURSE that i put to myself. it hit me back really deep. DAMN!!!!!

for the record...i think i might like my roommate. that crazy... he's like my brother. i tidy up his place. his bed...i think he's realizing that. and he owe me a thank. *wink

for now... i am gonna make myself ready for future and study really hard. and i'm gonna work very hard. so i can pull everything up and make myself ready and rich and confident and i want to create a place that no one will able to order me to do anything. and in my world..i am the king and i am the ruler,

thank you...

why my tears suddenly appear. like something was missing in my heart. what is that...it happpened so quick.. don't even give me chances to breath or to look around and have a thought. time...

friday, february 8th 2008

ketulusan hati ~ anuar zain

today..what happen to me today. i can't remember. but for sure... i got a call from En Taufic at 2 p.m. it kinda suorise actually got a called from him. as usuall he blame me for everything. and i just say yes to everything he said and hopefully he can say something nice to me. i don't care actually. maybe i am just too lonely till my part in mylife felt so empty and need a MAN to persuade myself and say to me that "everything gonna be okay"

unfortunaly, what happened is... he just said the bad thing about me. that i'm being selfish...i don't really care right now. my life is so full right now. i have roommate that care about me. hopefully. and i just knew that my roommate is a former taek won do martial artist. well...he show me a picture when he entered the tournoment in SUKAM. i'm impressed... that's why he got very HOT body...hahaha...my bad.

GYMNOPEDIES ~ piano chored

he kept playing a game ...first i shooter game. DAMN!!! i hate that game. make me more nervous when an enemy come from behind and shoot you. for real... and i heard that he had an accident back there when he was driving with his 4 freind going to ...i don't know. but the point is...u shouldn't drive when u felt so asleep. or in other word "Don't Sleep and Drive"

HOT BODY huh?

he has that...i always tidy his bed. and he's notice.. huhuhuhu... i have no other motive. like interior motive. but the point is..i don't like my roommate to be a messy person. i want the room to be clean and tidy. so as my place. and there's one of his friend so annoying that always bugging me around. but not as annoying as JOE.. OMG ..jOE is like pain in the ASS. i just don't get him. the fact that i knew him better than anyone else makes him think he's right about everything. when he's around.. i just get out from the room and i just hate him so M U C H. but that semporna guy that i did mention earlier... i did right? he's so annoying too...but... he's too charming to be hated to. hahahaha.... the fact that he's so annoying + have a sweet talk to me + always praise me in other angle of life. make him kinda reliabale to give me sort of advise. hahahaha... nak dengar nasihat pun memilih gak. what a person i am..right??

huhuhu but in the end..he's charming...

about my ex-bf ... i kept contact with En Aziz..we're both is STILL friend. with En Taufic..thing kinda dificult..but i don't really care about him rigt now. i have a life.. i don't need such person like him. so like pain in a neck. my money right now is sufficient enough for me to buy a food. but i need to be more like a super saver dude. coz my parent kinda stingy..hahaha,, but the fact that i always buy thing that shouldn't be bought and the money just disappear. i kinda don't know to what i spent the money to. hahahaha....

ok..that's for now. i meet a new friend. his name is ismail. huhuhuhu... he's cool.. i hope so. i met THE HOT guy at meranti Arcade. wearing short plus the hair...so super cool. i think he's mixed with chinese. that's make him super cool. yeah...FLAWLESS.

Something Worth Living for ~ shane ward

tomorrow..i will spent my whole day in PSZ. i have tons of thing to do actually. i'm gonna make an appointment with Dr Md Nor Mohammad. but i don't have that courage to do so. what's wrong with me...ARGH..!!!! i need someone to tell me so. i am so dependent. but i am...

that's for now...yeehaw!!!

Sunday, 10th february 2008

this evening i don't exactly knew what type of music that i tune into. because my room-mate kept singing this stupid song and i kinda happy and terhibur for that cause. he kept changing the music. so my mood kinda jumpy right now. right now i'm listening to "pencinta wanita". the soooo not my theme song. oh my god, and he like singing all the way through and that suck and kinda romantic. *erk... i coudn't believe that i said that. at least i thinking of it.

last night, i make a homework on calculus variation.and the thing that kept bugging my mind is that my friend roommate's kept coming. last time he's coming he ask me for me to rub his sore feet. and he kept asking me if i am intend to do special massage for him. *GAY!!!!

not in this world or next world or...like forever...HELL NO. this person is that i was talked earlier that kinda sweet talk guy. huhuhuhuh.....

rasa2xnya dia nak invite me for sex kot. tapi dia malu. well...felt ashame for doing a sin is a good thing. i will keep my pace to avoid any stupid behavior and bad consequences that might occur. just now. i watched "50 first dates" on TV. it was an oustanding movie that i ever watched. tonight..i'll be watching "bullet proof monk".. another awesome movie that people must watched. chinese new year always bring the best to the table. wow!!

i might continue this typing tonight coz right now i'm gonna play "Max Paine" game. the game that i most hate.. the "first eye shoooter" hahaha...seram lak...till maghrib kot. waduh..asar tak solat lagi!!!!

unfortunately, the game was uninstall from his desktop. hmmm.... motif!!!! well... i got green light to re-install the game to his PC. that's a good thing from him. tolerence! one of his good quality. i kinda fall in love to him. duh!!!

IT'S NOT GONNA WORK

today i installed a game called "prince of persian" it takes me an hour for me to install. and play about 5 minutes and un-install about 2 minutes. what an amazing satisfaction i got there. Argh...!!!

but i have to prepare for tomorrow test. calculus of variation. it kinda freaky and scary and i am so not ready. i don't know this subject so much. but at least i did knew what i am doing lately. it start making some sense. duh!!!

this night, the boys watched football. it's actually euro football. LIVERPOOL versus barcelona. i was betting on liverpool gonna lose this time. it's not like i am a big fan of barcelona or something. i just being a psycho voting for something against my roommate's favourite.

hahahaha.... if his team lose. it's gonna be a big smile on my face.

huhuhuhu....

well... better of to study. i think my life has began it senses. not like for a past few month. with boyfriend...it just not my time yet. GOD!!!!

gymnopedies ~ piano chored

my feveret past time music selection. bring calmness to my mind, ears, and brain too.